Reflections

Could things be better I don't know. Am I happy? Yes in some respect I have a family who I love and who love me. But what's there? What's inside? How to let it out? Why not just pretend it's all normal and carry on? That's what I do. Normal daily jobs day in day out. How to be me? I don't know. How to have fun? I don't know. What makes me ME? I don't know. Why am I writing this? I don't know 

There's a lot I don't know. There's a lot to find out. But where do I start? I guess there's no better place than Right Here, Right Now. Right?

Islam & Islamic Extremists - They are so different

Ok right I'm so sick of this. Whenever things happen. Whenever 1 person or 2 people go to the extreme we tend to blame the religion. Why? All religions are the same we all believe In the same person but we call him so many different things. Allah, God, Buddah. Islam is so different to the Islamic extremists. So why are we blaming them? 

 So much has happened in this world 9/11, 7/7, Lee Rigby Killing, Hostage situation in Sydney. All this and it just happens that the majority are Islamic extremists who think Allah wants this. They are wrong so wrong they're mind has been warped. What God no matter what you call him wants you to go kill people. 

 Yesterday a terrorist was killed after taking 17 people hostage. 3 of his hostages were killed. 9/11 Islamic terrorists hijacked planes and crashed them into buildings. 7/7 bombs in London again by Islamic terrorists. The war on terrorism. Lee Rigby murder where a British soldier was mowed down and then killed by two Islamic extremists.

I have Muslim friends. My best friends boyfriend is Muslim. So I'm saying this do not blame a religion. We all just want to live in peace it's the majority. So I'm stood here saying I'll stand with my Muslim friends I'll stand by Jay because we need to stop blaming a religion. Blame the people. 

 This is my friends blog post:

http://www.dreambiglivefull.blogspot.com.au/2014/12/illridewithyou.html?m=1

Coca-Cola Truck Tour & Shopping

 So everyone knows that the coca-cola truck does a tour every year, for ages now I've kept saying I'm going to go and well it's never happened. I was going to go last year with Serens dad but we missed the Birmingham tour date so we decided to go to the Leicester one but when that day came I just couldn't be bothered. It seemed to far away to queue up for hours on end to see a truck. However this year I did. I went with my friend Mel and Seren. 

  The coca-cola truck opened at 1pm and I'm so glad we got there early cause we was done by 5 past 1!! I spent more time getting up and down the podium with Seren because j wanted to make sure I didn't fall! It had been raining so the slope try had put out was slippy. To get our photo we was given a code. So in a few days I'll be able to download our photo. 

 After seeing the coca-cola truck we went Christmas shopping and what has happened to town?! The pallasades have gone. Now I haven't been into town for a few years so I'm guessing the pallasades went when they started to do the renovations to New Street Station. Me and Mel and Seren really shopped till we dropped because the moment we got home and Seren was fed she was sparks in the clothes she was wearing that day! 

  I know I was glad when bedtime came and so was this little miss but we had an amazing day!!! 

Lost Post

 I've lost half my post from coca cola truck do bare with me 

Breast Vs. Bottle - The Big Debate

Now I'm not here to tell you how to feed your baby that is up to you. I don't even care. As long as a baby is fed and looked after and is a happy baby, I really couldn't care less. I know breastfeeding isn't possible for some people and I'm not about to sit here and bang on about it and make them feel bad. I know there's many reasons people can't breastfeed for long or at all. I really don't care. I think as long as you look after your child it doesn't matter if they are breastfed or bottle-fed. I do care however that some breastfeeding mums get told to 'go feed their baby in a toilet' or get told to cover up. That's what I have an issue with.

 Last week in London a lady was told to cover up so she could feed her daughter discreetly. Now in my opinion putting a big cloth over yourself and your babies head causes more reaction than just bringing your baby up to you. We don't go out flashing our boobs out like these models but that's acceptable. Yes ok use a cover if it makes you feel comfortable. But no-one should be forced to. Would you cover a baby having its milk from a bottle? 

 

 Breastfeeding mothers are protected by the Equality Act 2010. Now like ive said before I don't care if you breastfeed or formula feed your baby. But if you breastfeed never feel like you need to cover up. You don't have to. 

Some boobie love from Seren

Moving On

 I'm no longer living in limbo which I'm happy about. Just not happy about the outcome but it's what's best for Seren. Today I gave john the days he could visit to have his access with Seren. Supervised by my mum. He's got access on Tuesday and Sunday's. Least that's sorted now. 

  Me and Seren can move on with our lives now start doing things for us. For our family. 2015 is going to be our year. 2014 was the best year ever I was blessed with Seren. My little star. I never ever thought I'd have her but now my life is complete. Christmas is going to be amazing I'm sure of it I really am. Serens first christmas. 

It's all happening now. Tomorrow I'm moving Serens big car seat out of the porch so we can put the spare tree up in there. I'm ordering a santa stop here sign for my baby. She's got a plate for christmas it really is coming into place. I've brought my Christmas presents from Seren. I've brought her dads and her grandmas. But even better I've brought my parents Christmas presents. Well not all of them. I'm going to go out in the week and get them some more things.

  Nan I know your up there watching so this Christmas is for you. Many more to come. We all love and miss you Christmas was your favourite. We'll open a present for you. Such a dear nan and such a great friend. The person I told everything to. I hope you have a merry Christmas in heaven. Don't go drinking all the sherry now. Seren and I love you so much. 

UPDATING

I will be updating my blog page. I've decided a re-vamp is in order. So please bare with me while I do this. I will continue to post as normal. But the blog may look a bit of a mess while I do it.