World AIDS day - Dec 1st

 Tonight I ask one thing, when you say your prayers or whatever you do before you go to sleep. Spare a thought for those who have lost their family from AIDS and think about those living with HIV.

Let's stop this stigma.

Let's stop ignorance.

One of the worlds most famous rock stars/musician died from AIDS. It's not something dirty or catchable by touch. Let's not treat these people badly. Don't stare, don't say mean things. 

Lady Diana Spencer never got AIDS and she worked with loads of people with it. So does prince Harry. It's only transmitable by bodily fluids.

Spare a thought for them 

Work It Out

   Not so simple to work it out when you do nothing but argue. Let's sort it out he says... He comes and sees Seren but never says lets talk.. Doesn't even say hello.. Cant forgive and forget things I've done when I've apologised over and over. Yet I'm supposed to forgive everything his family do? I'm supposed to forgive and forget that they said I wasn't family when I get no apology for it. Nothing saying they'll do more photos and include me. Nope it's ok for me to be treated like shit on someone's shoe by his family but I'm supposed to shout from the rooftops how sorry I am because I've told him to man up and be a dad.

   He says i want to sort it and comes with no plan to sort it.. Make up your mind

Update - Been A While

 Well last time I blogged to you all I was saying how I thought things between me and Serens dad weren't good. Well it's official instead of wanting to work at things he ended it last Friday. I couldn't even bring myself to cry, well not until mid week, I just carried on. Like a robot well I have a family to look after. That's where I'm wrong I have a family who will look after us. I have my parents who have been my rock and I have my uncle and aunt. I have lots of family around me. I have lots of friends too.

This is only a quick update because it's 22:35 and Seren is finally asleep so I'm going to join her in dream land. Till next time. I'm gonna try get back on everyday because I need to get back to being me. 

I love you all! 

Better Things

Your supposed to be happy when a baby is born. I was I was estatic. I had my family but it's all fell apart. Me and john argue more than we did before Seren was born and I just don't know why! I don't feel depressed or upset but these arguments get to me. They make me think is our relationship worth it? Do I put Seren through it? I don't want to. I lived with my parents arguing. I don't want that for her. I'd rather she has two happy parents than parents who argue. 

So we're 10 weeks in.. My relationship has gone to pot. I have a beautiful little girl.. Christmas is coming.. Things are generally good. Just wish they were better. How can I make it better? I really don't know. But for now snuggles with my princess make it all better